Woke up and found none!

Closed my eyes, know it ain't for the first time..

i wanted a wish so bad yeah.. another contract!

the days passed by.. the hours stretch time.. blues color the world,

oh i feel disowned! the days are getting bright..

lift me up this circle sure is not right..!

woke up and found none!

dreams were broken like a china bowl..

oh woke up and found none!

give me back those aspirations a ton..!

you don't know how the millions paved ways..

the dj wants fun like games.. hard to look back!

still moving in the skinny alleys.. notice me stop the tack tack!

road is full, grocers are up the tents are straight.. no second to waste,

they say i need to take another shot, give my best..

yeah have a softened heart..

please tell me you heard me roar..

burned the hell down, heaven earned a score!

all i ever dreamt the next morn had none..

everything maiden said was over done!

i lost a beat, the ring was a paste.. yes i stole the gem,

jesus is not around who will listen my tale!?

laughing my ankles out.. the meaning is a lil changed!

idea is the major you managed to take,

woke up and found none!

dreams were broken like a china bowl..

oh woke up and found none!

give me back those aspirations a ton..!

fall is near, winters are late.. stop the vibe,

yeah definitely not a national party!

they want the wicked earthen crap.. i left the dripping tap!

wishes are hollow, screams piercing soul..

wish it's raining like crazy.. dripping like amanda's nose!

i would have gifted mum a white cute rose!

no one to turn to.. emos are fun!

cut the world and i'll make you kiss a skunk..

god's list is long.. my call will be late..

every midnight though i still hope to get an update..

the stars might fall yet the search is low!

call down the cops there's an emergency to report!

my dreams went missing..

rhythms pop the chart.. rockin' out!

woke up and found none!

dreams were broken like a china bowl..

oh woke up and found none!

give me back those aspirations a ton..!

Blues are clues..!!

Dont be disheartened it's just that one among the million tries..

try it hard and make up your mind does no matter what maybe the size..

i know i have been there.. feels odd at times..

people might stare.. ignore those funny eyes..

what goes in making no one will ever describe..

make your move.. set the trends..

love the way you rule over your friends..

you are the one.. break a leg.. dance to the tune..

see it's on the breaking news..

shout it loud blues are clues..!!

pop is your own.. burn it down..

let the crowd cry it loud..

you want more.. i wouldn't let you stop..

it's your dream.. bring it to the top..!

hollywood bells are ringing loud.. hop through the square..

touch it now.. the change has come i'll shout a wow..!

fresh is your face.. you can do with a little grace..!

flash is on.. close is your heart..

might help if you act a lil smart..

mob wouldn't let you live.. critics are a piece of shit..

baby that one tear is enough to set us apart..

calm down.. count till the eternal nine..

let me handle the audition lines..

grant your access.. it's the time..

so what if it's a lil like lime..

see it's on the breaking news..

shout it loud blues are clues..!!

guard your soul.. let not it escape..

bring in the original.. no hour to waste..

create a world.. small not curled..

straighten the approach.. you want it though..

sleep this night.. it's your true magic..

bring alive the sounds of may..

it's just not another day..

the angels are near.. cut away the fear..

its your turn.. shine your way upstage..

write the change in your history page..

music is true.. the clap is false..

follow the light.. play your guitar..

the screams are naming the future star..

i knew you can.. guess how proud i am..

blessed you were not to get disheartned..

that's the reason you dreams were not abandoned..

see your name is now on the breaking news..

shout it loud.. blues are clues..!!

Left out..!!

I heard the ring.. picked up the call..

the voice was familiar but the message was small..

i thought i was mistaken.. but who would i trust..

no there was no one.. all i could see was the brownish red rust..

the meaning was clear..

i had not been invited.. i so was not expected..

how i felt.. no one would have guessed..

yes i was right.. i was left out..!!

left out from the familiar crowd.. oh i was left alone no doubt..!!

don't they want me anymore.. have they forgotten..

or i never existed for them, m i so rotten..!?

i never cared for my future coz i thought my past was still near..

i always held them not less then dear..

but it was a mistake.. i guess i know it now..

i wont held them guilty..

it was me who thought nothing great..

being alone sucks.. but being segregated hurts..

wish they knew how it feels to be treated like dirt..

i feel so left out.. like some unwanted piece of meat..

it was not justified but i don't own any of their rights to ask why..

withstanding all the eluding..

i know i donot hold any importance..

the gold has shined.. without me they take their wine..

the hopes are not that high..

yes i was right.. i was left out..!!

left out from the familiar crowd.. oh i was left alone no doubt..!!

you might feel it's untrue..

but the truth lies within.. what would i get..

nothing is in my way.. it hurts when no one wants your memory play..

i cannot exist.. please be near..

how i thought you would never go..

lets state the obvious.. you went but kept the pace low..

hasten or come back.. i'll cover what i lack..

they crossed my way.. the formality was written all over..

a nice hey was sure not the reasons i stopped by..

ignore me hard.. dont call me near..

coz i have learnt not to give away my dignity..

it sure might be your ability..

i'll start all over.. it has to be hard.. i agree..

but still it hurts the way they ignored..

i might try hard to cut it with a sword..

but i know it wouldn't..

yes i was right.. i was left out..!!

left out from the familiar crowd.. oh i was left alone no doubt..!!

you dont know how it feels..

but soon it's your turn to face.. time sure has got some wheels..

i was hurt.. will always be with the same feeling..

nothing hurts more then the not invited..

anyways please your self.. do what your heart desires..

i wouldn't look back.. thanks for your disapproval..

yes i was right.. i was left out..!!

left out from the familiar crowd.. oh i was left alone no doubt..!!

Freedom vibe..!!

The car moved slow..

i guess i missed some glow..

but i did heard what my dad said..

he certainly was making good points.. eh..!?

donot know what the rich brats do..

oh.. hell they break some rules..

drive their SUVs.. throw parties or rent some 5 star pools..

yeah i am not one of them..

do you wanna know who i am..!!

freedom.. freedom.. dream i want..

is freedom freedom..!!

gift i adored is freedom..!!

true freedom..!!
you cannot multiply.. dollars with independent fly..

i'll work my heart out.. don't need a cashier guy..

hell i can pay my bills.. who wanna be shy..

yo baby i cannot afford a paris flight..

balances aint that bright..

loans are not that easy.. hope is getting dizzy..

but if you assure my independence..

i'll give you my full attendance..

give me my freedom.. freedom..

the dream i see is nothing but pure freedom..!!

donot promise me a million dollar..

i can work without the white collar..

just give me my apartment's keys..

refreshing will be a nap with burger full of cheese..

i love this city..

no one will ever ask me.. donot stuck your nose..

my door has to remain close..

donot get inside.. grant me a lil isolation..

you'll never know but this aint my nation..

freedom.. freedom.. dream i want..

is freedom freedom..!!

gift i adored is freedom..!!

true freedom..!!
you ought to get it by now..

dont give me an instant wow..

sit think and then describe..

though i know you wont get this freedom vibe..

no dont you try na haste..

you sure will get that taste..

stretch your arms wide.. its the freedom guide..

gulp the feeling.. rise to heights..

believe in freedom.. get the light..!!

coz all i need is freedom freedom..

yeah freedom..!!

rich wont get me right..

i so donot drive a car white..

but know my freedom holy crap quite..

dont explain me stuff.. i donot need your demo..

excuse my life..

donot try na guide.. i know i got my way right..!

freedom.. freedom.. dream i want..

is freedom freedom..!!

gift i adored is freedom..!!

true freedom..!!
you cannot multiply.. dollars with independent fly..

i'll work my heart out.. don't need a cashier guy..

hell i can pay my bills.. who wanna be shy..

still don't know what the rich brats do..

break some rules though..

m not one of them.. dont think me so..

SUVs are not my drive..

but hell still you cannot get that freedom vibe..!!

Paint it black..!!

Bring on the spectrum..

i so want to choose.. with which to color the world so huge..

pains and giggles all have to be covered..

cant leave even one out.. its the mystery to be dicovered..

yeah.. jazz it up.. or rock it loud..

you want scream to come from the dieing crowd..

mix and mash.. scramble the meaning..

guess i figured it out..

I'll paint it black.. oh.. i know i got it right..

is better coz it's not bright..!!

heart can sure be covered.. the lungs would'nt give no excuse..

air i breathe has the dye.. i love seeing it reduce..

you tell the people.. i dont care..

coz i've got my color.. what else is there..

search the better.. ring me if you can..

it's for you to decide.. you dont need to get tan..

drink the bitter.. realize the truth..

run but dont forget.. you know the real..

black.. can clear all tests..

for once accept it's dominance.. you'll sure forget the rest..

emotions and love are best when painted black..

the correct dimensions though it'll lack..

but care not much..

its sure for the better..

the day needs no sun shine.. coz the real begining for hell is night..

I'll paint it black.. oh.. i know i got it right..

is better coz it's not bright..!!

pick the brush.. its your turn..

shape the canvas.. fix the light..

imagine a dream and paint it for a while..

i'll scratch some blacks..

completing the frame..

mark some crosses.. burn the papers white..

makes me applaud loud..

oh you've got the idea m so proud..!!

take a long breathe.. its your clothes..

who need pinks.. when black has got all the bling..

search the top.. grey wont do..

all the world are having massive blues..

c'mon dont think a moment..

your coo coo is calling for the day to begin..

I'll paint it black.. oh.. i know i got it right..

is better coz it's not bright..!!

oh i adore the feeling.. black is my warmth..

wrap it around.. got the new trend..

black is the smoke.. so are the planets round..

i know the pope will agree..

even the vatican has to state it right..

moon shines bright when dark is the night..

see even nature adores black not white..

who needs your affection.. i can go slow..

my passion is true.. with the black..

i know m going through..

dont you stare.. get jealous..

get dark with the smoke gearing inside..

i know you agree.. the night is mine..

yeah I'll paint it black .. oh.. i know i got it right..

is better coz it's not bright..!!

I need not give in..!

There was this dream i used to see..

it was amazing.. as the land showed me..

i adored the idea.. of it coming true some day..

and believe me i tried..

tried to fly high.. the clouds were so near my sight..

higher and higher my flight ran wild..

but the crash took away that innocent child..

which was some where near my heart..

but i cannot break down.. have to rebuild the dream..

oh i need not give in..

no body saw me falling..

no body cares if it still functions.. that sure will help me succeed..

coz no one was around the corner..

hell you cannot let me sleep..

there has to be another sea..

i have to swim by it..

i wouldn't end there.. the world has to see me more..

i'll let not my eyes close down..

an other hour would not mean leaves turning brown..

the dream i see is calling me loud..

i'll not hear the city cries.. i want to reach it some how..

you don't give me a clue..

i'll manage all the blues..

aint about how fast i reach..

aint about the way i choose..

its my try.. oh i need not give in..

i tried again.. this time it sure has to work..

but not possitive are all my hopes..

do you think m wrong.. jerk it off..

i need to climb that mountain.. need to hoist the flag..

my dreams are calling.. need not look at the hurdles bag..

the way is uneven though.. but the signs are clear all in a row..

i need that second chance..

you need not be sure.. it's the destiny dance..

one more step i'll take.. one more log to break..

time is passing by.. but the goal is still demanding some try..

i cannot be sure.. the scene is getting bright..

but the aspirations are still held tight..

let it loose.. flexible shouild be the cords..

some one is trying real hard..

i want it soon.. it'll be on the wall..

the dream i want is sure standing tall..

i need not break down..

have to rebuild the dream..

i sure need to start the considered extreme..!!

but it's still hard to believe.. that i fell some day..

the crash took that initial dream play..

time gave me another hour..

did what was the demand.. the sea i swam through..

was the first break through..

oh i need not give in..!!

it's my try..!!

Wish for a second chance..!!

i wanted to overcome the great hurdles..

wanted to swim the vast oceans..

wanted to fly like the free birds.. oh in the southern winds..

tame less life i desired.. life gifted me a chance..

oh i had to grab it at that very instance..

what i did cant access it though..

but m sure i did something wrong on the go..

coz she could'nt have left me like that..

was i rude.. i certainly don't know..

wish for.. yeah wish for a second chance..

wish i could see not much of her but just a glance..!!

but there has to be some other great things..

my life is sure not like that of kings..

but that cant be the reason.. damn i must be knowing..

i want to proceed further you know how..?

might take an other road.. the one adjacent her house..

doors are banging i should look out..

this time i have no doubt..

this was her stuff.. i know i had kept it in the light..

this city seems to be calling my name..

can hear some cries but hell m lame..

the sky scrapers are built to high.. that's what for you can die..

don't just walk.. fight the way off your car..

samurai's poster winks from the wall of bar..

you think too much.. don't get scared..

you know you gotta rule so,

wish for.. yeah wish for a second chance..

wish i could see not much of her but just a glance..!!

glares is covering the best of her shining eyes..

yes she just passed by..

probably demanding an applaud..

does she thinks i'll explain her what happened so far..

but i can try at least..

this is no big deal.. if she wants a hug..

sure it's coz of some bug..

but the strings in her mind indicated a bang..

wish i knew that slang..

but that girl was not so easy..

the feeling was making me hell dizzy..

is she here for a reason.. love sure has no seasons..

the swift life i ever wanted was the main friction..

but the way i choose was the main distraction..

yes i made a mistake.. i have to agree..

she thought the way out.. but dint told me complete..

was it a riddle i couldn't make out..

so screamed loud..

wish for.. yeah wish for a second chance..

wish i could see not much of her but just a glance..!!

i need help do you want even a part of me..

c'mon tell the bitter..

i want to hear.. this aint going to end..

its so stuck right in the middle of no where..

you want it changed.. have trust in me..

so do i need.. wished i had not opted the other way..

my heart still says..

wish for.. yeah wish for a second chance..

wish i could see not much of her but just a glance..!!

You've got something that i desire..!!

I saw you in the crowded plaza..

spotting the uncommon, i lost my balance..

you were damn amazing.. so real time top rating..

you got the perfect blend..

oh with a european accent..

you make my heart pound faster..

there is some fire..!

believe me you've got something that i desire..

the first look is what made the impact..

baby you stimulated my senses.. your beauty made me apprehensive..

you saw with the corner of your eye..

for that look again a million times will i die..

you made things look great..

what if i got some what late..

don't wake me up if you sure it's dream..

approaching you is a lil tough..but soon i'll do that for sure..

give me space.. i'll show you something great..

i sure cant buy you pearls but wait till my time comes..

you'll be around to see me arrive..

baby make a move.. show the trend..

get some what closer.. i'll make you go mad..

there is some fire..!

believe me you've got something that i desire..

donot ignore even if you want to..

see some more.. it's just the starting of the show..

wait till i here an applaud..

coming from you it'll be a reward..

i guess one day you would..

turn around and reply with a nod..

havent reached the end yet.. plot has still not arrived..

let her bridge the gap..

only then can i finish this lap..

yes i want it desperatley not that early don't worry..

but think you know much..

you sure have learned some numbers..

count till ten and realise my presence..

you wont regret a present..

there is some fire..!

believe me you've got something that i desire..

nice i cannot guarantee..

seems like you donot like it either..

yes i love the feeling..

making me crazy.. i've got something to say..

hug me tight.. draw me near lets build our castle..

by now you know what you've got that i desire..!!

Being ordinary is the only way..!!

The people i meet every day have a dream to say..

some real.. some out of the world..

drawing their imaginations wild.. they paint a canvas bright..

where fiction meets reality and flaws meet perfection..

where even the goons are awarded..

do they think it'll be true..!!

god knows what'll they do..!!

like i say..

we try much to be different but at the end of the day being ordinary is the only way..!!

speeches and sounds are all around..

is it gonna make any change..

all like celebs.. but believe me all cannot be one..

like the maddening vibes the dream sale is expanding tribes..!
move ahead gimme space..

my dream is larger then life..

you cannot tie me in the universal limit..

m so not timid..

i know how and i know when.. m just waiting for the time..

it'll soon be mine..

sale of dreams is so not for me..

i've flied up.. i've seen stars..

much more i have dreamt of universal lords..

you donot need me now.. but i know some day you'll bow..

i know you call me no special and that's what i adore..

coz we try much to be different but at the end of the day being ordinary is the only way..!!

call me to hollywood.. i'll show you a little bang boo..

gabbana and gucci are so not true..

being special is not to live in milan..

shopping in paris..!? are you sure its about me..

i live in my house though aspire a little better..

you cannot tie me up.. dreams are no hurdels..

i'll stand up.. i wont give up.. i know m not the only one..

but not even like the rest..

i am your enemy baby run if you can or gimme your best..

learn to be ordinary.. guess its the hardest thing..

life is better without the bling..

i want you happy.. think of the summers..

you want to ape.. go run and die a copy..

dancing to the tunes of pop..

don't forget you want to reach to the top..

be different.. be new..

i like the way you do..

you are more special then you could ever imagine..

like i say..

we try much to be different but at the end of the day being ordinary is the only way..!!

The walls still remains..

As i was passing by through the corridor..

i spotted a place i used to hide..

during some childhood play..

the house where i evolved has certainly changed..

the windows the doors.. the curtains.. the case..

what the making witnessed have all been replaced..

change is the necessity and believe me i agree..

but sometimes what i adored gets altered with what they call better..

i know it might be important but though my heart doesnot find any reason..

getting back to those older days is certainly not reasonable..

paints and pictures, carpets and glasses..

all showing the brilliance of life..

don't know if my adoration for fades and rugs..

associated with some ancient memories have any relivance..

the sculptures carved with perfection are dominating the area..

though imperfect clay dolls what i tried..

when the world was not complex..

would dominate my sunny moments..

the world around has surely changed.. probably for the better..

and it does matter..

the paintings, the glasses.. the mirror the enamel..

all have changed..

but surely the wall still remains..!!

I know you love me.. baby i know you do..!!

I know you love me.. baby i know you do..

you dont show to the world.. but its nothing new..

there are moments when the timing is perfect..

when the moon is full and the breeze so cold..

the vintage car moves so slow.. when your heart beats loud..

its when that something inside me shouts..!!

coz i know you love me.. baby i know you do..

there might be some reasons that we donot share our temptations..

to others it might not be any relation..

the stars are not shining so bright..

our destinies might never coincide..

the sky might never be our destination..

the world may seem nothing but an illusion..

but i know deep down.. u think what i want to be..

and the time we spent together..

floods back into your memories..!!

but i still believe i matter a little..

tieing our knot of faith we might never move around..

but this aint the reason that we donot feel connected..

when your eyes lower down and when the world fades out..

i know you feel my presence some how..

you might not show to others but thats not i want..

this aint what i desire..

coz i know you love me.. baby i know you do..

when i saw you with an other guy..

believe me i felt nothing like sorry..

i saw you happy and thats what i cherished..

i'll survive those moments i spent and those dreams i saw..

again and again and that would surely be a gain..

nothing more can i desire..

all i ever wanted i got in seeing you contented..

stars in your eyes and light on your face..

visions of peace and a sign of grace..

what more can i say.. you have got the perfect soul..

words are not enough to admire your enigma..

but all i can try is to give a fair idea..

forgive me if i was ever rude..

m sure you will..

coz i know you love me.. baby i know you do..

this night i saw a dream where you were near my heart..

i laughed in sleep coz i knew it can't be for real..

but was satisfied with the illusion i saw..

coz i know for real..

in the darkest and the safest place in your heart..

i have engraved a name.. what if as a stranger..

i know you'll still recall me some day..

coz i know you love me.. baby i know you do..!!

i see a dream every night..!!

The clock is showing me midnight..

my eyes want to decline into a land of mystical might..

every night i wish to wake in a world where my dreams exists..

where i mark my existance.. my speeches moves the mob..

the rest of the world cries my name.. i know the truth some how..

the next morning has nothing new to say..

practical thoughts are befalling on my way..

why can't i touch the stars..

why there's no dream come true moments for me..

yes heck m ordinary, doesnot this makes me a lil different..

jess m not blessed.. i know that for sure..

coz no fairy god mother will ever be there for me to console..

how can i struggle.. when there's no path.. please almighty show me some mercy..

every night i aspire.. to wake in a land of sweet truth..

though i know none of its parts will ever come true..

i know i wont dominate the rest..

i know there's nothing special..

all my expectations are compressed tight..

but still i cant help myself from seeing a dream every night..!! 

The old yellow tree..!!

An old yellow tree is all what i see..

on my way every morning.. strange i find its beauty..

this windy begining of the day i was amazed..

though one may pass without any exclaim..

but still it stands as magnificiently as ever..

unperturbed of the ignorance its yellow shine with all their glory..

it reminds me of my own story..

breeze do pass by it.. birds do chirp..

bees buzz around forming a chain of melody..

its trunk is hard showing the years it has passed..

the last days are it witnessing..

still with the old royality it serves all sincerely..

one day it'll fade.. but none of its sign are visible..

that beautiful yellow tree is placed as ever..

still glowing, still flowing.. still proving its dominance..

so what if the winters are near.. what if the barren twigs is all it'll have soon.. 

future is unpredictable.. but present is there in our hands..

be like the old yellow.. charm every moment..

sparkle your very existance.. time is not the test believe me..

attitude is the real criteria..

it sure is strange.. as strange as strange could be..

yet all i can see is that old yellow tree..!!

Welcome to the urban planet..!!

The high rise buildings.. the great city centre..

the plazas so crowded.. the shouts of the sky..

the speedy cars passing by.. the tapping of my converse..

glittering neons and no one near your soul..

welcome to the urban planet baby.. aint no time to console..!!

coz no one here cares.. if you die or live..

edges of superiority clash here for dominance..

dancing in the pubs baby make your survival..

water dripping.. stinky little apartment..

loans make up for my rentals..

smoke is the ultimate purity..

blackened is my heart..

i have learnt to survive here.. what if its hard..!!

i can see the pain but who cares i still pierce..

every part of my body to feel my existance..!!

glittering neons and no one near your soul..

welcome to the urban planet baby.. aint no time to console..!!

i heard people live here.. though they die every minute..

making dreams true.. many run from reality..

makes no sense.. still they desire..

knowing they wont come true..!!

but they donot understand..

waiting for love sometimes cost a life span..

god doesnot exist here.. roads are the only almighty..

worship your skills.. believe me they'll guide you to prosperity..!!

time running short.. scars of tries are now visible..

glittering neons and no one near your soul..

welcome to the urban planet baby.. aint no time to console..!!

Photograph..!!

As i looked on the paper pieces that showed the once me..
a sense of nostalgic feeling over whelms my heart..
strangely i have grown.. over with the toddler term..
done with the kiddo age.. sometimes i laugh, though mostly i cry..
don't know for what my heart flies high..!!
one of those pieces i found mom younger dad slimmer..
and brother lovelier.. pieces of our past joining to form our future..
those old guitar strings.. some old innocent memories..
those funny hairstyles n even amusing accessories..
everything recalling those sunny days of freedom and fun..
i wonder why that photograph remains so rigid even when the situation aroun 'em change..!!
showing their immortality.. they live the moment again and again..
wish is to capture the emotion not only the dark shadows..!
want to relive all the moments locked in that paper..
i want my past to merge with my present to give transparency..
want my every moment to get engraved in that paper..
to relive them when the world wishes me to fade forever ..!!

Fantasies becoming reality..!!

Going places wont work.. stuff dont work the way you desire..
desires dont occur out of some misfire..
winds blow though random, but find directions when required..!
structures and shapes all combine to form a feeling alive..
wants of a lifetime being expressed.. need to understand though is required..
i want the moon to shine bright and the sun to spread calm..
all i believe is in my heart.. mind can be confusing some time..
dreams are flowing like a tornado.. destructing the foundations of obstacles..
burning the new lamps of hope.. destiny is soon going to shape..
of something which was thought but never expressed..
eyes can see but heart can explain.. of the beauty that soon is to be witnessed..
flying high my name can be seen..
but i wont change.. no i wont..
change may the eternal but not my aim..
but stuff dont work the way you desire..
n desires dont occur out of some misfire..!!
believe in your self.. believe in your dreams..
n see your fantasies becoming reality..!!

something different tonight..!!

The moon lite night is showing me something different today..
ain't the same peaceful environ.. something little striking..
probably showing a faint glow of some mystery gearing..
my dreams are flying on a high note..
is this some omen..!?
god knows what this night has to show..
fading stars shining so bright.. almost blinding the mortal eye..
splendid blues have all the glittering tonight..
tried to understand, wanted to know the reason why..!?
don't know why.. don't know when.. the breeze became soothing..
dead silence suddenly made a melody..
piercing my soul the light did passed..
don't know where to go.. 'coz i do know the location but find no reason to be..
puzzled thoughts shaping up.. or shapes getting puzzled..!
this night has created a zeal that is hard to explain..
gosh i want to live my dreams.. make 'em all come true..
dont know but when the destiny will play its role for me to overcome,
this frictional light that is providing way but unclear..
god knows why this moon lite night is showing me something different today...!

Silence..!!

Words though convey meaning..

emotions are communicated through silence..!

speeches though attract ears..

real understanding is through eternal silence..!

world is though full of voices, which claim importance..

real need though is silence..!

a long silence can start a revolution,

even can end one..!!

silence thus is the real language of soul..

bridging all the differences..!

creating a state of harmony..

conveying the truth of humanity..!!!

my experiences of blogging...

well umm.. i hav been bloggin 4 quiet sum tym nw.. i mean 1 month is a fair long tym 2 undastand n sort of master da basicities of ny thn 4 dat matter.. so ya i hav also well nt fully mastered bt atleast hav gt a lil idea abou dis blogging world...!! well al this tym i hav learnt dat bloggin is done 4 an individual's own pleasure n nt 4 da world... i mean atleast i think so.. writtin my thoughts n etc etc on ma blog in da form of poems n prose is wt enchants me n tranqulises my otherwise disrrupted( frequent) brain...
so ppl blog 4 urself.. donot get dis heartened or wt so eva if no body is watchin u coz atleast u hav ur eyes 2 watch ur wonderful creation be it poems, factual descriptions or related...!! i wud say ppl who donot write wt dey feel r da biggest loosers in dis world n i thank god a million tyms dat atleast he gave me da power 2 express maself in words otherwise i certainley wu hav died... so dats ol 4 da moment bt certainly i'll share sum mor feelins wd u ma blog wen eva da tym is rite...!! untill den dasvidaniya....!!:D

verse of my denied soul...

m nt tokin abou sum 199 year old brood...
its a ballad of my life...
depicting ol what i lost n struggled throughout da way...
sum cn col dis insanity...
but 2 me insanity has got an antithetic tenor..!!

pieces of ma belongingness was always obscure...
dint had ny 1 to share my tears...
difficulty in cataloging da true etiquette...
of an individual sumed up wd da already extant miseries..
dint had ny 1 to ask for adoration...!!

dis reticent night da moon casted an enchanting glare...
piercing my thoughts it provided a relief...
though momentary bt eloquent...
never understood da ephemeral ramification...
dat left me behind singing verse of my denied soul...!!

abou some fake frn(s)_....

well thins r quite strange in ma lyf.. i mean nuthin is da normal stuff... coz wen it cums 2 me (shivam) normal thins vanish n confusingly blurd images appear.. nuthin is 4 sure in ma lyf... mostly i have 2 struggle ma way 2 reach or achieve sumthin.. n dat struggling spirit has always helped me even in da most odd situations... earlier i had dis phobia of shifting places either of education or of nythin else 4 dat matter.. i used 2 b very carefull abou presentin ma self bt nw i really donot care... coz i really have ppl in ma lyf who care abou me n donot want ny new entries in dat list... its strictly not shyness or being wrapped in a shell or stuff bt jus da thing is dat i donot want 2 experimment wd ma lyf ny further..!! experimental stage is da most difficult of ol wherein one has 2 b very formal n has a limited access on da other individual which really is irritatin coz i want full access on da lives of ma friends... which obviously every 1 cannot offer so lyk i really donot care abou dose ppl... n takin some examples frm sum of ma recent "so called" frn(s) whom i met say sum tym ago.. in da begining everythin was gud n u knw dat silly friendly lyk bt nw "dey" hav become so neutral dat evn dere nt so friendly nature cannot be expressed in words... dis is da situation which i dislike da most... but den dis is dere truth "real truth of da fakes..!!" so i have limited my defination of friends 2 my old buddies nly... i really feel suffocated wen i see or hear frm dose so called frn(s).... wish i had never shifted... but den change is da policy of survival n every 1 has 2 face changes... so m also facin dese un welcoming changes which tried 2 make ma life hell bt thanx 2 ma sanity which helped me 2 make a "real" way out of ol dese "fakness"....!!

figure behind da mist...

da night was intense, everythin disguised...
mist was coverin da betta of ol...
blurdness was da only thin clear..!!
glacial whiff slaughtering da living..
lurid eternity strengthening its crux...
making locale eerie...!!

jus then a figure though unclear..
marked its existance...
cuming frm da sod of dusk n shadow...
it created an environ of warmth n contentment...
da reasons of its ingress though were misty demselves...!!

bt with it's influx a hope for luminous era was experienced..
da aspiration for life n survival was being provided..
cutting da dusky edges new life was reincarnated..
though it's grimace was still hidden...
best of it's features were never shown...
bt still da divine himself created dat figure behind da mist..!!

sunday morning insanity...

step down..!!

goblet of fire..

haunted locale..

rusted glory...!!a pinch of black in da massive greens...

sunny view...!!

grazing burro..!

urban life rocks..!!

well experiencing urban life is lyk da best thin in da universe.. urban part of da world is where ol da fun n excitement lies... "lets get back 2 da greenries n fields n wt nt shit" is wt ol da old broods say.. da "IN" thin 2day is urban fashion n style statements... old boring formal luk is lyk totaly outdated... so ppl experiment wd ur looks.. i mean jus change urself n ya ur outlook... changing ur age old indian mentality shud b da first step 2 undertake da new urban lifestyle...!! broaden ur thinking horizons n wake up 2 an ol new open n flexible mentality... n ya most important thing is USE UR OWN BRAIN...!! donot blindly follow da instructions.. b confident n question da fuckin authorities of da so called society... hav ur individual identity n plz donot idolize ny1.. b ur own idol n worship ur own skills n creativity... wear sum cool stuff hav an appropriate attitude 2 carry 'em gracefully n dn u wud b ready 2 rock da urban planet wd ur very urban style...!! so keep rockin guys n ya in a very urban way..!!\m/

night...

with a touch of fright n a sense of hate da darkness spreads it's reign..
da cluster of glitterings though tryin 2 provide brilliance..
primarily fail in dere aim..!!
da glacial zephyr making existance tough..
though befriending a broken heart da darkness strongs its grip...!!

providing shelter 2 many sinical souls, strengthning dere desires..
darkness expands its evil domain nurturing shadowy mortals...
da feeling of isolation dominating da tranquility...
adds up 2 da dusky ambience...
drawing da images of ma blurd future da night moves on..!!

darkness proves a filthy truth...
truth affecting ol our lives....
nuthin in da world is true...
evn nt our shadow, as leaving us in da darkness...
it proves da ultimate true begining is da night....!!