my experiences of blogging...

well umm.. i hav been bloggin 4 quiet sum tym nw.. i mean 1 month is a fair long tym 2 undastand n sort of master da basicities of ny thn 4 dat matter.. so ya i hav also well nt fully mastered bt atleast hav gt a lil idea abou dis blogging world...!! well al this tym i hav learnt dat bloggin is done 4 an individual's own pleasure n nt 4 da world... i mean atleast i think so.. writtin my thoughts n etc etc on ma blog in da form of poems n prose is wt enchants me n tranqulises my otherwise disrrupted( frequent) brain...
so ppl blog 4 urself.. donot get dis heartened or wt so eva if no body is watchin u coz atleast u hav ur eyes 2 watch ur wonderful creation be it poems, factual descriptions or related...!! i wud say ppl who donot write wt dey feel r da biggest loosers in dis world n i thank god a million tyms dat atleast he gave me da power 2 express maself in words otherwise i certainley wu hav died... so dats ol 4 da moment bt certainly i'll share sum mor feelins wd u ma blog wen eva da tym is rite...!! untill den dasvidaniya....!!:D

verse of my denied soul...

m nt tokin abou sum 199 year old brood...
its a ballad of my life...
depicting ol what i lost n struggled throughout da way...
sum cn col dis insanity...
but 2 me insanity has got an antithetic tenor..!!

pieces of ma belongingness was always obscure...
dint had ny 1 to share my tears...
difficulty in cataloging da true etiquette...
of an individual sumed up wd da already extant miseries..
dint had ny 1 to ask for adoration...!!

dis reticent night da moon casted an enchanting glare...
piercing my thoughts it provided a relief...
though momentary bt eloquent...
never understood da ephemeral ramification...
dat left me behind singing verse of my denied soul...!!

abou some fake frn(s)_....

well thins r quite strange in ma lyf.. i mean nuthin is da normal stuff... coz wen it cums 2 me (shivam) normal thins vanish n confusingly blurd images appear.. nuthin is 4 sure in ma lyf... mostly i have 2 struggle ma way 2 reach or achieve sumthin.. n dat struggling spirit has always helped me even in da most odd situations... earlier i had dis phobia of shifting places either of education or of nythin else 4 dat matter.. i used 2 b very carefull abou presentin ma self bt nw i really donot care... coz i really have ppl in ma lyf who care abou me n donot want ny new entries in dat list... its strictly not shyness or being wrapped in a shell or stuff bt jus da thing is dat i donot want 2 experimment wd ma lyf ny further..!! experimental stage is da most difficult of ol wherein one has 2 b very formal n has a limited access on da other individual which really is irritatin coz i want full access on da lives of ma friends... which obviously every 1 cannot offer so lyk i really donot care abou dose ppl... n takin some examples frm sum of ma recent "so called" frn(s) whom i met say sum tym ago.. in da begining everythin was gud n u knw dat silly friendly lyk bt nw "dey" hav become so neutral dat evn dere nt so friendly nature cannot be expressed in words... dis is da situation which i dislike da most... but den dis is dere truth "real truth of da fakes..!!" so i have limited my defination of friends 2 my old buddies nly... i really feel suffocated wen i see or hear frm dose so called frn(s).... wish i had never shifted... but den change is da policy of survival n every 1 has 2 face changes... so m also facin dese un welcoming changes which tried 2 make ma life hell bt thanx 2 ma sanity which helped me 2 make a "real" way out of ol dese "fakness"....!!

figure behind da mist...

da night was intense, everythin disguised...
mist was coverin da betta of ol...
blurdness was da only thin clear..!!
glacial whiff slaughtering da living..
lurid eternity strengthening its crux...
making locale eerie...!!

jus then a figure though unclear..
marked its existance...
cuming frm da sod of dusk n shadow...
it created an environ of warmth n contentment...
da reasons of its ingress though were misty demselves...!!

bt with it's influx a hope for luminous era was experienced..
da aspiration for life n survival was being provided..
cutting da dusky edges new life was reincarnated..
though it's grimace was still hidden...
best of it's features were never shown...
bt still da divine himself created dat figure behind da mist..!!

sunday morning insanity...

step down..!!

goblet of fire..

haunted locale..

rusted glory...!!a pinch of black in da massive greens...

sunny view...!!

grazing burro..!

urban life rocks..!!

well experiencing urban life is lyk da best thin in da universe.. urban part of da world is where ol da fun n excitement lies... "lets get back 2 da greenries n fields n wt nt shit" is wt ol da old broods say.. da "IN" thin 2day is urban fashion n style statements... old boring formal luk is lyk totaly outdated... so ppl experiment wd ur looks.. i mean jus change urself n ya ur outlook... changing ur age old indian mentality shud b da first step 2 undertake da new urban lifestyle...!! broaden ur thinking horizons n wake up 2 an ol new open n flexible mentality... n ya most important thing is USE UR OWN BRAIN...!! donot blindly follow da instructions.. b confident n question da fuckin authorities of da so called society... hav ur individual identity n plz donot idolize ny1.. b ur own idol n worship ur own skills n creativity... wear sum cool stuff hav an appropriate attitude 2 carry 'em gracefully n dn u wud b ready 2 rock da urban planet wd ur very urban style...!! so keep rockin guys n ya in a very urban way..!!\m/

night...

with a touch of fright n a sense of hate da darkness spreads it's reign..
da cluster of glitterings though tryin 2 provide brilliance..
primarily fail in dere aim..!!
da glacial zephyr making existance tough..
though befriending a broken heart da darkness strongs its grip...!!

providing shelter 2 many sinical souls, strengthning dere desires..
darkness expands its evil domain nurturing shadowy mortals...
da feeling of isolation dominating da tranquility...
adds up 2 da dusky ambience...
drawing da images of ma blurd future da night moves on..!!

darkness proves a filthy truth...
truth affecting ol our lives....
nuthin in da world is true...
evn nt our shadow, as leaving us in da darkness...
it proves da ultimate true begining is da night....!!