for a moment though a freeze was well guessed
I have stood still and the world went strong
with it's might and the things sure didn't stopped..
The loss was mine and its reasons were none
days of the dreaded freeze where ignorant were the beings
did i gambled my year, swayed through the tide..
but the achievement was far from reach
now the mercury has risen and the memories shamelessly fading..
do i owe an answer to the suffering self?!
Left to repent for someone else's blooper..
Had i been firm or the stars would have favored..
I won't have lost the span that was dearer,
Though i became major no doubt but the celebrations chocked and withered..
the days that followed had a tinge of remorse and pain,
dilemma overpowered the best of ourselves..
Questioning my intellect and choices of existence i spent the months..
months which were numbered and had no infinite end,
my 18th was squandered and i have a lot of regrets..
Had there been a change, a wish from the keeper
one who grants life and blows in mortal spirit..
i would ask for my age to reach a stagnant phase..
where i would bath in the river of immortality and loose maturity..
in exchange of a youthful grace,
lessons learnt will be left for the sages,
i'll err further and the surety is certain..
but i'll get what was denied for the leaves have browned
and the iron rusted..
the winter has paved the way for spring and light..
my hopes have been attached to a high flying kite.
