abou some fake frn(s)_....

well thins r quite strange in ma lyf.. i mean nuthin is da normal stuff... coz wen it cums 2 me (shivam) normal thins vanish n confusingly blurd images appear.. nuthin is 4 sure in ma lyf... mostly i have 2 struggle ma way 2 reach or achieve sumthin.. n dat struggling spirit has always helped me even in da most odd situations... earlier i had dis phobia of shifting places either of education or of nythin else 4 dat matter.. i used 2 b very carefull abou presentin ma self bt nw i really donot care... coz i really have ppl in ma lyf who care abou me n donot want ny new entries in dat list... its strictly not shyness or being wrapped in a shell or stuff bt jus da thing is dat i donot want 2 experimment wd ma lyf ny further..!! experimental stage is da most difficult of ol wherein one has 2 b very formal n has a limited access on da other individual which really is irritatin coz i want full access on da lives of ma friends... which obviously every 1 cannot offer so lyk i really donot care abou dose ppl... n takin some examples frm sum of ma recent "so called" frn(s) whom i met say sum tym ago.. in da begining everythin was gud n u knw dat silly friendly lyk bt nw "dey" hav become so neutral dat evn dere nt so friendly nature cannot be expressed in words... dis is da situation which i dislike da most... but den dis is dere truth "real truth of da fakes..!!" so i have limited my defination of friends 2 my old buddies nly... i really feel suffocated wen i see or hear frm dose so called frn(s).... wish i had never shifted... but den change is da policy of survival n every 1 has 2 face changes... so m also facin dese un welcoming changes which tried 2 make ma life hell bt thanx 2 ma sanity which helped me 2 make a "real" way out of ol dese "fakness"....!!