Retaining my intellect..

Got what the heart craved, the hours were spent in a dusty haze..

stepped and crawled on an uneven ground,

bizarre and inane were the settings in place.. I stood on the terms,

which have shaped my face, i need to evolve?!

into something receptive, something closer to the accepted norms..

Will i begin the transitional phase, is yet another mystery to resolve!

I've got the frowns and swears, vibes and talks by some unerring brains,

Break me free though leave a room..

I'll do the same of which i have been accused..

I won't change for my views are colored in the stains of past,

struggles and harsh were the realizations of moral being,

I walked past the odds and have got a stand,

No friction can stop me from achieving that starry band..

Yes, mine is an ivory tower i agree!

the doors and windows of which pave way to a virgin retreat,

spirituality of the soul and the enlightenment of the mortal heart..

white is the color of the unexplored past,

future holds a need for belonging, friends or foes will count in equal..

Will i require the wisdom wit or solace in pain..

For someone's prediction for me is a loneliness chain!

Destiny is what i make, and i have succeeded so far,

for me to decide what my days will be like. sunny and mirthful is my take..

i know i'll survive and carry the joy of realizing my potential,

not falling prey to unsound allegations.!

I'm retaining my intellect with proud on my face and purity in the soul..

NEW

The days have passed and the hours have stretched,

for a moment though a freeze was well guessed

I have stood still and the world went strong

with it's might and the things sure didn't stopped..

The loss was mine and its reasons were none

days of the dreaded freeze where ignorant were the beings

did i gambled my year, swayed through the tide..

but the achievement was far from reach

now the mercury has risen and the memories shamelessly fading..

do i owe an answer to the suffering self?!

Left to repent for someone else's blooper..

Had i been firm or the stars would have favored..

I won't have lost the span that was dearer,

Though i became major no doubt but the celebrations chocked and withered..

the days that followed had a tinge of remorse and pain,

dilemma overpowered the best of ourselves..

Questioning my intellect and choices of existence i spent the months..

months which were numbered and had no infinite end,

my 18th was squandered and i have a lot of regrets..

Had there been a change, a wish from the keeper

one who grants life and blows in mortal spirit..

i would ask for my age to reach a stagnant phase..

where i would bath in the river of immortality and loose maturity..

in exchange of a youthful grace,

lessons learnt will be left for the sages,

i'll err further and the surety is certain..

but i'll get what was denied for the leaves have browned

and the iron rusted..

the winter has paved the way for spring and light..

my hopes have been attached to a high flying kite.

Sketches..

Happy with myself..

I don't want you to look me in the eyes,

i've got the phase out and have been living since then..

why was i not thinking back then, numbness dried the questioning spells..

you were not needed to express what i felt.

I could have won the world cause' i know how to be happy with myself,

Hard at first but i got the hang,

preach me not for i'm happy with myself!

They call me names and then type the emotions,

put together for they have got 'em all in proportions..

why did the pretension continued for the blind,

for then my head wasn't right.

Being strong has helped and i'll stick by,

the days of hanging on the edge did no wonder..

agreed it was a blunder,

but it made me learn to share happiness with myself!

I'm continuing the development trail..

pieces of which have long been shared..

i'm on a way that hasn't been explored and so am curious to death,

hold me not for i have achieved the goal long lost.

i am for me and the feeling's right..

darkness can't take the hope so bright.

I've left the musings and stayed up all night,

things have made me happy with myself!

Happy so that i can burn the past,

happy so i can tame the forgotten art..

pleased so i can mystify your charm,

for i have came down a mountain, rode the winds..

and have done the similar nuisance,

in my dreams you had no exit..

but the change disillusioned my sense,

and i'm back with being happy with myself!

Happy to express and happy to live,

in land where my days had to begin in a lame hope

and end in the way which was quite no exception..

Your existence won't have changed from any of my deals,

but am sated with myself,

for i've won the world cause' i know how to be happy with myself,

Hard at first but i got the hang,

preach me not for i'm happy with myself!

Roadtrip..

Three in a row..

Speak out..

It started when i first took a breathe,

the world was callin' out with the arms wider then the rest..

I heard a tune and thought it was an omen..

yeah! a future was calling with all doors open,

It's not what you think but what makes you feel..

A place, a thing or a person that no other can heal,

Call out to the world it's name..

Scream out the moments there's no shame..

Speak out! ohh.. speak your heart out...

cause' there's much in you that has not yet been explained,

I want to venture into your deepest pains..

You need to come out, let's talk about..

the days that are yet to be lived,

there's a hope and we'll stick to it..

Call out for help or yell out an instant exclaim,

but you need to speak out, ohh.. speak your heart out...

Hours will start and end at the same pace,

i've made my peace with the needle's race..

play it loud but don't forget the toothy grin..

Speak for yourself and let them think,

They'll ignore at first and clap at the end..

lame game wouldn't make you bend!

When you speak out to the world..

they're are bound to hear, i just wanted your heart to be clear..

The place will change and the things might fade,

time has it's boundaries and they have been already laid..

a person with the warmth of presence,

has been aroun' and will continue..

Cause' I spoke out and the world did hear...

I'll repeat the words, yes it's no big deal,

A place, a thing or a person that no other can heal...

Call out to the world it's name..

Scream out the moments there's no shame..

Speak out! ohh.. speak your heart out...